These few days had been a real test on my ability to believe. And now, I feel that belief is the source of power.

What I mean by 'power' in the first place is the ability to take control of your own lives and influence the people around you. The thing about such power is that we all have it, just in different areas. Some people have more social power, some have more personal power, some have more academic power, and so on.

I feel that it all comes from what we believe in. Of course, it's naive to say that just by believing in something, one can achieve that thing. That's why I feel that belief is the source of power, but not power itself. Belief is the engine that drives people, that give them a kickstart to whatever they are about to do.

Someone who wants to lead a country have to first believe in the country's potential and in his/her own abilities. Two people who want to get together have to believe in one another. Someone who wants to do something as simple as writing a blog has to believe in the whole rationale of writing a blog. The list goes on.

So, these few days had been a lot of hoping and attempting to believe. As much as I proclaim to be a superstitious person, as much as I like to say things like "everything will somehow fall into place", and as much as I believe in my religion, I usually have doubts. But in these few days, I had to believe in the law of attraction, in my ability to cope with things, and most importantly, in my religion.

I don't think I can elaborate on what exactly I'm talking about, but basically I was living in fear for two days and believing was the only thing that could save me. So, I did, with a lot of help, and I think my believes and my parents and my religious leader saved me from falling into depths. Not to forget the law of attraction.

And then something more happened today, when I went to see the doctor for my stomach again. The past few days, I had been trying to use the law of attraction to attract the fact that I can eat CNY tidbits. Although I wasn't able to recover before today and get the doctor to say "your stomach is in perfect condition", I was able to at least attract the fact that I could eat CNY tidbits.

The doctor told me that I could eat most food if I keep in moderation, with the exception of spicy food. No big feasts for me yet, but small little pleasures to stop myself from going emo. I still believe I can recover before CNY. That's the first step to making it happen.

Labels: health, preachy, reflection