Being in poly kind of messed my year sense up because our poly level does not start at the beginning of the year. So at the beginning of 2012, I was a year 1 student. A few months through, I became a year 2 student, and now I'm 3/4 through year 2. Being quite confused over what happened this year but being insistent on blogging about it, I went to scan through my January and February posts and realise that this year had been sooo long. I can't believe I saw the terms "VPPP" (a module in year 1) and "Brighter Sides" (a concept my classmates came up with in year 1) in my posts.

So this year was a transition from year 1 to year 2, and in the process we became seniors. Even up till now, I haven't really interacted with my juniors. Actually, I guess I never will. I'm going to graduate from DTVM with them not ever knowing that I existed.

And I guess this year I opened up a little but closed up a lot, regrettably. It is because I started hiding traits that are considered 'bad' just so I can have a smoother social life. Perhaps this is the downside of maturing. Every year, I look back and think that I was so immature the previous year. Maybe this is how some adults become more and more serious.

But anyway, this year had been a big mess, firstly because of the fact that poly years and actual years do not sync, and secondly because I was a mess. But out of this mess, I guess it's typical that I say I probably gained something out of it.

This year, my grandfather passed away. I think it was at the beginning of the second year. And then there was the CASS carnival, which was really fun preparing for. We made a haunted house. Oh, and there's the LEAP camp in ipoh, which was tons of fun and life lessons.

My obsession with One Piece kind of tided down, and I gained an extremely temporary obsession with the Final Fantasy series.

I got closer to some people and then distanced away and then got closer to other people and then distanced away again. This is the story of my life.

But all in all, it was a pretty good year, because I got to know more of my classmates better, I learned much more about TV, writing, and new media. Then I started following TV series, and started playing games again, but I stopped gymming. I must start this habit again once I recover from the ever-so-annoying stomach problem which I talk about in almost all my posts nowadays.

Didn't meet the mehmehs as much as before, sadly, because two of the people I often used to meet who lived near me moved away. So it's only Guang Yi, Zi Xing, and I left in the vicinity. Towards the end of the year, I think my relationship with my family improved. But we didn't have any outings besides dinner and one time of movie. I think I forgot to blog about it. We went to Crystal Jade for dinner. Invited my grandma and my sister's boyfriend along. Then, we watched "life of Pi". It was quite recent.

So, I don't know what else to say. Let's move on to new year resolutions.

1. Open up more.
2. Be difficult to annoy.

There are certainly much more that I need to fix in my life, but I guess I shall do it slowly. Even though I only have two resolutions for the year, and rather specific ones at that, I think achieving those two are going to be a big challenge. I have no idea what is holding me back, but I shall just consciously try harder. Sometimes that is the answer.

I used to think the goals I set for myself are pointless because as much as I try to be a certain type of person, I can't change much. But the thing I learn about changes is that they happen so slightly day by day and we won't realise it until we really look back at something concrete, like a blog entry. So, I'm hopeful that I can achieve my new year resolutions.

Labels: future, reflection, reliving those days