Today, Jt and I had a small chat about relationships. We had many small chats about it before, but somehow today I just feel that I can blog about it, since there's hardly anything else I can blog about. (I say this almost every single time I blog -.-)
Anyway, to start off, I should just say that I've never really been in love. I had small crushes and some infatuation here and there, but none of them were real. I guess one reason is because relationships require so much commitment and I've never felt deeply attached to anyone besides my family and some of my friends.
But sometimes, over-possession
gets too unhealthy, especially when it reaches a point when one cannot live without the other. Maybe I've just not experienced it before, but I don't think I'll want to be binded so tightly to another person.
And demands for relationships are just too high. I've seen millions of photos that say unrealistic things like "if she looks at you, hug her and tell her you love her. If she tells you she'll be alone tonight, call her and talk to her through the night. Call her and say good morning to her" blablabla. It's unrealistic because people are not mind-readers and one cannot be in another's mind 24/7. Once again, maybe it's just me.
But of course, relationships are really beautiful things. I can at least imagine the sweetness, the warm feeling of care, the intimacy, and trust, and so on.
Sometimes when people talks about the factors important for a relationship, I feel that personalities and looks are not all that matter. The most important of all is the soul, and 'soul' is just something I cannot explain. It's just that if a person likes you or accepts you, you can just feel it.
Recently people around me are getting into relationships. I've got to admit that there's some urges that go like "why am I still single?" But, after it all, not liking anyone means not liking anyone. And anyway, whenever I like someone, I get all confused and end up with the conclusion that it's just a minor crush. I'm curious about relationships, and I'm always trying to find the logical definition whenever I think I like someone. What is love? That kind of thing. But it's all about the feelings, that's what they say. I guess some things really need intuition.
I'm like a robot. I guess I'm not getting into a relationship anytime soon. As for those who do, make sure it stays true. That's the most important.
Says the one who has never been into any relationship before.