Just lying on bed, playing the radio in my iPad, sipping really warm milo and listening to raindrops splattering onto the ground outside the window. Relaxing, without a plan and without thinking about anything in particular. This is just like one of those carefree days I had when I was still in primary school.

Blogging about nothing in particular, just recapping the day with vivid details. I miss those days.

I miss celebrating festivals in MMORPGs, playing lots of online games, lying on the spare mattress in my grandparents' room. Miss listening to them just talk about people I don't know. Awaiting Sundays so I can visit my maternal Ahma as well as cousins.

But life just moves on. And then I went to secondary school. I remember knowing pretty clearly that things would be different, and that my life would change. So I cried every night and my parents didn't know what to do with me. Two weeks later, I got used to it and started enjoying my new life.

And then life moved on again and O`levels was over. I got my first part time job, got scared, and quit and did not know what to do anymore. While everybody else was working part time, I was wasting my life away at home. And somehow, time passed not-so-depressingly, and I'm in poly.

This time, I coped a little better.

Then now, it's another phase of life. I'm in internship, and proud to say I'm coping much better than previously. Maybe I'm getting used to changes.

But thinking back and pretending to relive those childhood days, I can't deny those were great times. That doesn't mean now isn't any better. Things just get newer each time, and I'm pretty sure at some point I'm going to miss whatever I'm going through now.

Life is okay.

Labels: reflection, reliving those days