Quite a long time ago, all of us received our JAE posting results. I got posted to Creative writing for television and new media in Singapore poly, and that was my first choice. Why did I put this as my first choice? My siblings were both in Ngee Ann polytechnic and there is a direct bus from Bishan Interchange to Ngee Ann, which means that if i had chosen to go to Ngee Ann instead, i could have gotten about an hour extra of rest in the bus (with a seat). So why did i chose to go to Singapore poly? The reason is that i chose not because of the polytechnic, but because of the course. SP is the only poly with the course that i wanted, one that enables me to write.

What's so fun about writing anyway? Actually, I don't know if "fun" is the right word to describe writing. I write because i like storing and expressing information using words.

I used to enjoy drawing, but i gave up. I had ideas, but i could not express them. After many years, i realised that the best way for me to express my ideas was through words, which means writing. By writing, i am painting images in people's minds. Maybe i'm not skilled enough yet so the pictures i painted were blur and simple, but a good writer would paint a clear image. He can also create a beautiful voice. He can create anything. This is why i believe that writers don't tell a story; they show a story.

In one period of time last year, i got really stressed up and quite depressed because of all the small useless pressure around. I had lots of plans in improving my life, but i could not execute them because there were too many things for me to remember. I feared that i would forget and lose my future to darkness. It was a notebook which helped me. I started writing down everything in that notebook. By everything, i meant my plans, my feelings, my interest and all sorts of random stuff. I enjoyed it a lot and it also helped me a lot. That is because i had stored information in the notebook. Those words had carried the burden of remembering for me. Whenever i wanted or needed to remember, they will return those information to me. Writing relieves lots of stress.

Another example of how writing relieved my stress was some months ago. I felt like i was being looked down upon by many people. Arrogant people. I felt unhappy, and these unhappiness led to stress. I ranted about it in my blog and it worked. In fact, my blog used to be filled with unreasonable and mean rants. In 2006, I complained a lot about my "best friend" in primary school over a stupid online game. and it actually helped me to ruin people's impression of that guy. In 2007, i actually became better but i still ranted on random people in the same mean way. Skipping to 2010, I ranted my way through the first half of the year. When i read them months later, i still believed that they made sense.

Even though i enjoy writing, i cannot write long things. I cannot write pages after pages after pages. I'll eventually stop. Maybe it is because i am not passionate enough. I'm not shocked if that is the case. I don't want to be a writer in the future, instead i most likely want to be a teacher. The career guide said that i need a diploma to be a teacher if i go to polytechnic, but there is no teaching course. So, i guess any diploma should work. And by taking Creative Writing for TV & New Media, it can help me improve my English. Maybe i can teach English in the future.

I write with a purpose. If i have no idea i am not keen on writing. I like to express ideas, but i don't enjoy rambling meaninglessly unless it's about something i enjoy. For example, you will never see me write a blog post about politics and governments just because i want to write something. That is because i have absolutely no interest in politics. So, the reason to why i write is to store and express information.