Now that I think about it, it's all manage manage manage.
So many things to manage; emotions, time, self-esteem, money, relations, studies, neatness of the table, mindset, looks, etc.

And i've failed to manage my emotions pretty much. Slightly less careful with words, and i made a big fuss. That is anger. It would've been a lot worse if i didn't manage to borrow this book "How to Improve Your Self-Esteem" by Elaine Sheehan. One of its chapter was dealing with managing anger, as anger is deeply linked to low self-esteem. Somehow. From there, i've actually learnt that we human tend to get angry irrationally at times, and when that happen, we tend to think of stuff like "By right i didn't have to do this" or "Argh! This sucks this sucks this sucks. Go and die, go and die. I am angry" And by having such thoughts, we make our subconscious feel worse. So, we have to learn to replace these statements with "I am unhappy to do this, but nevermind, it is a small matter only. No point getting pissed" or "Argh! This sucks, but it's alright, because it's not a big matter.

I've also learnt something important from that same chapter: We have to accept that nobody is perfect. We all make mistakes. Perhaps your classmate said things that you didn't like, or perhaps he/she sounded kind of sarcastic, but regardless, we should forgive and let live. Mdm kaur showed us an article, and this wise man called Ornish said that forgiveness is not letting the matter slide, but it's letting go of the tension. I can't say i'm someone with moral values. I lack the moral courage to do what is right often, and i am rather paranoid, but let's do what we can.

Prelims is in 3 weeks time, literally. This is the end of week 6, and our english paper starts at week 10 monday, and our papers only last for 2 weeks, with subjects like social studies put together with mathematics. As a friend, classmate, or schoolmate, let me just show my concern and ask: Have you started revising?

If not, you should, because this isn't sec 3 EOY, it's prelims for o levels, a preparation of the stack of papers that'll determine our lives. Let's work hard and do things strategically. O` levels is a giant shadow, but it isn't a giant. A small little mouse can also make a giant shadow. Our prelims is scarier than our o`levels. So, it's alright and we will fight on to pursue the best.