I don't really have much to say for this month, except maybe that it has been slightly easier than the previous month because I've accepted my no-full-weekend life. There is no need for me to talk about my still-incomplete 7 extras again, but I guess I should just add that I confined together with a new batch of recruits at the first half of this month.

There was one day when a group of Alpha commanders and I participated in Swim For Hope, then there was a huge letdown some days later, and there was Support company cohesion yesterday - a steamboat.

Let me just point out that it would be great to be a stay-out personnel for slightly more than a month, learn to drive at least a military vehicle, and not have to take back my words.

This month, I got to talk to some of the recruits in depth about certain things that I don't tell others because I did a lot of prowling duties with them. It's nice to just make friends and get to know stuff about one another, whether it's superficial or slightly deeper. I also realised the extent of my hatred towards certain people. I also got to experience first-hand how annoying some people can be. I won't even deny that the shadow-self theory might be at work here; it's not just them, because it's also me.

On another topic, I've become a more confident leader, I think. This month made me realise that I'm not really that afraid; if anything, I'm just really unsure and at times anxious. Despite all the negativity, I have gained stuff from army after all. Sometimes you're forced to become a "better person", which is really just a person more aligned to a certain organisation, group, or society's thinking.

Labels: NS, rants, things that happened