Just a list of things in my mind:

1. These past few weeks sucked.
2. I'll never tell my best friend the negative things in my mind.
3. In fact, I'll never really tell anyone my problems because no one will understand.
4. I'll never admit that my best friend is my best friend.
5. I'll pretend not to be pissed, because that's the mature thing to do.
6. But inside, I'm really killing whoever is at the other side of the fucking phone.
7. Sometimes I brand myself as a pathetic loser because I'm the only one in my life asking anyone out. It makes me feel like I'm the only one who wants to hang out, which means that everyone else have alternatives.
8. I suck at everything.
9. I'm the most ignorant person I've ever met.
10. I want to feel confident, but as I've mentioned, I kind of suck.
11. When I ask someone out, I'm actually expecting a 'I'm not free'.
12. I prefer sincerity over politcally correctness.
13. I don't exactly enjoy alcohol, but I like the fact that they make me honest.
14. I hate lying and keeping secrets, but that's what I do.
15. I hate myself so much.
16. What I do in my free time is really none of anyone's business.
17. I'm not begging you to use the gift I gave you, but don't put it on top of a dustbin.
18. I lose my patience at you a lot, and that's because I can never get through you.
19. I hate you so much.
20. I'll never admit to how important the people around me really are.
21. I'll never admit to how much I really love to do what I love to do.
22. I hate watching shows alone.
23. I hate being alone in general, but sometimes I rather keep to myself.
24. I hate talking about actors and singers and other boring stuffs.
25. I'm self-centered. Full stop.
26. When I do something, I put my all in it.
27. It sucks when I can't do things.
28. It sucks when I don't have things.
29. It sucks but I'm not brave.
30. And there are still much more I'm unwilling to share.