Sometimes people say that ignorance is bliss. There are times when i strongly agreed with this statement, but there are also times when i strongly disagreed.

One reason why i don't like books, articles and talks that tells you how to be a better person is because they carry the message "you're not good enough, so you must improve yourself by being kinder, braver, more hardworking, smarter, etc." It's really tiring following endless numbers of codes. Knowing too much "moral values" isn't good, but conscience kicks in when you start to breach these values. Of course, we need moral values and codes to make us "better people", but we all know that we can't be perfect, so it's really not blissful to learn more and more about "the right ways to live" and stuff like that.

Another case will be really knowledge. Knowing too much may not be so blissful. Astrologers who read interpret the planets too much get stuck in worries about stuff like mercury retrograde (i kept thinking about this recently because one of my lecturer mentioned it and it kind of intrigued me :D).

Recently i was talking to one of my friends. When i was talking to her, my whole body was faced towards her while hers was faced away. This is a small matter, until i recalled some body language facts which i read quite long ago. When your body faces someone in a conversation, it shows that you are engaged and interested in the conversation, and vice versa. I forced myself to not face her after that to not seem pathetic. At these kinds of moments, ignorance is really bliss.

But sometimes i hate myself for being so ignorant about some other stuff. Celebrities, songs, television and stuff has always been quite a "taboo topic" for me to talk about because talking about these just shows how ill-informed i am. It's not that i don't like talking about them, but it's that i know nothing about them and i don't know how to know stuff about these things other than watch a lot of TV, watch a lot of movies, look up on good-looking celebrities, listen to lots of music and stuff. I don't do these. Watching TV and listening to music always seemed difficult to me. I am weird :(

I think there must always be a balance. It'll be nice if we know enough but not too much, though it is hardly possible. I guess the best thing to do is still thinking positively.