I feel like i haven't been blogging a lot this month. Even when i blog, it's either that the posts are repetitive or they are ranting. At first, it's because i've spent too much energy on CAs. Then after that, when the CAs "tided down", i had no mood to blog. But now i have the mood to blog.

I'm so happy today because today is a good day in disguise. I really wasn't looking forward to this day. But it turned out good and i've sort of overcame one of my greater fears to a point (though not completely).

Anyway, it's almost the end of the month, so i shall do a reflection of this month.

The mehmehs
The mehmehs are really great! :D Enjoyed the time spent with you all. Went to buy friendship bracelets yesterday :)

Family
Spent a little more time with my family this month because it was my brother's 21st birthday on 22nd july. We wanted to find a nice restaurant to celebrate it because 21 year old is supposed to mark the unlocking of the adult world for a person. But we ended up in this disappointing restaurant which left my mum complaining non-stop. Then my sis and dad got angry at the complaining. After that, we went home to cut the birthday cake and celebrate it with my brother.

The day after that, we went to watch Harry Potter and the Death Hallows part 2. I didn't read the books, so i'll say that it was awesome! Voldemort was a funny villain. He has such a funny face as well :)

Watching English Shows
Okay, this is not part of this month, but i'll just talk about it anyway. Usually, i don't understand english-language shows without subtitles because i somehow never seemed to be able to catch what the people were saying. So i never really liked to watch stuff because most shows didn't have subtitles. I love animes because people give them english subtitles. But it doesn't really make sense when english subtitles are given to shows spoken in english. When i asked, people told me that they naturally understood what was said. Why can't i? o_o Not self-pitying.

BP Mentoring
Today, I've started with my CCA, like finally. Meeting new people is always scary, but today i've struggled with my social fear and overcame it a little. I've actually made some friends :) And, i managed to not feel inferior talking to people older than me (i usually do, though not always).

I was super not prepared for this first session. I wasn't really prepared to deal with playful kids. I didn't know how to make kids like me (thus many of them ignored me :(, except for about 2 :D [is it a good thing that i wore a Naruto shirt today? Because it sparked conversation topics with them o.o]). Didn't end up being the mentor of my favourite kid so far, but my current mentee is cute and accepting :) And we were told to teach maths today. At first, i was pretty confident, until i remembered that primary school students don't use calculators. Managed to struggle and survived a session which ended up being quite productive. But from now onwards, i should be polishing up on my maths.

Overall, it was fun and interesting :)

Myself
As i've mentioned, today i managed to fight off my fear a little. And just yesterday, i've decided to believe in my own potential and stop trying to prepare meaninglessly for the future. It was successful for today and it felt like i had let go of a heavy bag containing rocks. Other than that, this month, i've became more direct. But my temper didn't improve.

"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." - Franklin D. Roosevelt

School projects
CA2s this month, the start of the second school term: HML, VC, CSM, DT, WMP.

Other than DT (Deconstructing TV), they were all group works. HML (Heroes, Myths and Legends) was the most successful. Also, it's the only module which let me earn marks i was satisfied with. The others were okay actually, though they could be better. So i was actually feeling really uncertain of my VC (Visual Communication), CSM (Creative Story Making), and WMP (Writing Across Media Platforms). DT was fine because it was mostly technical, research, and observations.

Tomorrow is WMP presentation. Quite worried because we haven't rehearsed yet. But i shall just kick these pointless worrying away.

Yay.