What have happened recently seem to disable me from showing anger, although i'm really pissed off. In fact, i've been losing my temper nowadays. FN coursework sucks. Chinese homework suck. I feel so unfocused today, probably due to lack of sleep. But a good thing is that i am controlling my sweet drinks intake, for healthy purposes.

Anyway, kind of random, but, when i think back to when i'm still "friends" with marcus's clique, all that i wanted was physical company and to prove to xun quan that i can do without him. Such childishness. So far, in my secondary school life, xun quan was one of my most genuine friends and our friendship burst because of me. I kind of regret it, but if not for breaking that friendship, i wouldn't have experienced so much changes last year and 2008.

Anyway, i found out that i wasn't really afraid of _, but i believe what i've felt all along was hatred.

Yes, it's normal that you don't understand what i'm talking about in this post, just venting on something. I can't bottle everything up, and i don't confront.